This should keep us all thinking...

Tears and hope...

I know I owe you all a "real" post, but work has been literally kicking my butt the past two weeks, and my whole family (and all our friends) have managed to get that nasty stomach bug that's going around. BLECH!!!

Anyway, I came across this video this past weekend and knew it was one I had to share! If you've got a few spare moments to watch, it's totally worth it! I'm praying with everything I have that for many of us, our arms won't be empty too much longer...


Tears and Hope Video

Answered email...

First, thanks for all the prayers, thoughts and hugs from my post yesterday. You ladies are the best, and definitely help me keep my sanity while navigating the IF road!

So my RN has finally gotten around to answering the email I sent her yesterday morning explaining about the delay in getting my period. I go in tomorrow morning for a cycle-status check, which means bloodwork and an ultrasound. The bloodwork is to check hormone levels (to see where I'm at in my cycle) and the ultrasound is to check for any active cysts (producing hormone) that may be delaying the cycle (or corpus luteum that would show I've already ovulated). If my cycle is being delayed by a cyst, then they'll give me a shot of Ovidrel and my period should show up within two weeks. If it shows I've already ovulated then we wait. I'm really, really praying that it's not delayed due to a cyst. There were a few small ones spotted during my last cycle, so I'm praying that they haven't grown. But either way, it's out of my hands. He is in control and will carry me through whatever it turns out to be...

Is there anyone out there who's dealt with a similar situation?

Confusion sets in...

Not only am I wondering how on earth it can already be Monday again, I am wondering just when my period is going to decide to show up this month. I'm usually a solid 28 dayer, but now that it's CD32, I'm really scratching my head. I took a pregnancy test yesterday morning (knowing full well that I'm not pregnant) and am just waiting to hear back from our nurse to see what our next steps should be. When A & I had our follow-up with the Dr. last week, he said that if I hadn't started by Monday to let them know. I'm guessing they'll probably want me to come in for b/w and possibly prescribe Pro.metruim to get things moving. Why it is that the minute we decide to move onto the next step, the crazy redhead decides not to show up? It's just beyond frustrating!!

Looking for a little more inspiration?

I'm in awe of this man...her even quotes my favorite verse from Jeremiah. If you can devote a few minutes to watch him at work, please do (sorry about the subtitles).

"Circumstances do not have to change for you to become victorious, it's our heart that needs to be filled with the Holy Spirit."
~Nick Vujicic~.

The strength to get back up...

I received an email from a very dear friend of mine this morning. Shannon (in yellow below) and I have been friends for over four years. We met through another couple and our "crew" became thick as thieves.


I've watched all these ladies get married, struggle through miscarriages, struggle with getting pregnant and celebrate the birth of each of their beautiful children. It's been an awesome experience and one I'm most humbled to be a part of. Shannon and her husband are now expecting their second child in July, and A and I truly couldn't be happier for them.

Anyway, back to my reason for posting...she sent me this email and as I was watching it through tears at my desk, I just knew I had to share it. What a connection it has to my first post of 2009! I really can't put into words what watching it does for me, but I'm hoping it does the same for you all out there who are struggling to navigate your own bumpy roads....take a look...

Welcoming 2009 & letting hope in...

Welcome 2009! Really, I can't believe that the whole hubbub of the holiday season is over. Weren't we (me!) just all complaining about how hot it was, and going on and on about looking forward to cooler temps, and dare I say it....snow? Wasn't it just Halloween? It seems like time passes by so fast, and before we know it, we'll be welcoming Spring.

I can honestly say that I was more than happy to usher out 2008 and welcome in the new year! Even with all the heartache and disappointments of last year, there is a part of me that still holds out hope for so many things in 2009. And not just baby hope, but hope that God will continue to watch over my family, will continue to strengthen my marriage...hope that He'll continue to lead me down the path He has planned for me. In order for that hope to be my driving force, it's important for me to let the past be exactly what it is, the past. After all, I can't change what's happened, I can only learn from it and move on. But still, it's hard. The past creeps in when we're feeling vulnerable, it makes us second guess ourselves and our decisions. It's like the elephant in the corner, but I'm breaking free! Starting fresh! I can't promise that it will always be puppy dogs and rainbows. After all, that's not reality. But I can promise that I'll try. And with God by my side, how could I do anything but succeed?

Here's hoping that 2009 brings nothing but health and happiness to us all!